July the Terrible

Ever since my last post plenty of things happened...

Once again we are car-less some jerk-offs thought it be freaking awesome to steal the Car. The Insurance company thought it would be wonderful to screw us in the ass while we were bent out of shape. It's O.K.. we got a lawyer, he's given us hope for a better future.

I realized I never explained nor mentioned on here that I got to see Blink 182. It was amazing it was my teenage years in front of my eyes. It was falling in love falling out of love, growing up and all the small things. Awesome show and to sweeten the deal I had my bf by my side singing out to our favorite songs. If that bratty 12 year old I was saw me that day she would of said "Fuck yeah!"

January came and went a long with all those other months. July though, oh July... you bastard. July is dragging and going as fast as molasses. July has go get over it self and realize that nobody wants it and nobody needs it.

My 2 year anniversary with David came up. I'm still in disbelief 2 years of nothing but keeping it real. There are times we fight, argue, laugh, love and cry but we've kept it real. We aren't perfect, we're flawed, we're human and we feel. We're pretty cute for two ugly people. It doesn't feel like 2 years it feels like months I guess because we can talk about anything superheros, anime, planets, stars, love, life, parenting, babies, shows, music, me, him and especially us.

US

It seemed so complicated. He was soldier I was a random person. I remember I once said I would never date a soldier because they aren't for me their lifestyle is different. and BAM. I guess I jinxed myself, pretty glad I did.







I don't know what to do with my life at the moment. I'm at the fork in the road of life and I'm unsure what to do. I know I want a career I can move forward in and make enough to buy shit for me but later on for my family. Enough to support myself in case I'm out on the streets (God forbid). I need help and advise sometimes I wish I just instantly knew what to do. I just want to do EVERYTHING but I know it's not possible. I gotta figure this out quick.

For now I'm gonna try to take it a day at a time. At least enough to let July pass.


Hope All Is Well!
Ms.OLi

That Kind of Night

You know when the weather is cold and you can't help but lay back really LISTEN to a song and you can't help but remember the past...
I'm in an amazing relationship right now, I'm happy as I ever was. I'm looking forward for the holidays regardless of how muddy the future looks I'm looking forward to what comes next...

I thought back to my first boyfriend and realized that each one taught me a lesson in life. I've applied the lessons and I'm happy where I am now. I've made mistakes in the past and I've felt pain and I've caused pain in the past.

I'm lucky that I can say I appreciate "Love", I realized there are others that will never or won't find the concept and the point of love. I can't define love because everyone sees it differently. To me Love is 2 people in their simplest form. Like a math equation, like 2 pure elements. 1+1=2. Material gain, wealth mean nothing if you can't spend 4 hrs with the person and have fun, Innocent fun. Laughing, talking, giggling like kids in the playground. Pure Love.

I know love hurts and it causes deep scars but the same way love can hurt it can also cure. Just gotta find your definition of love, the way you want your significant other to accept you as you are you should accept them completely especially their flaws. You can't change a person but if you're open minded and try to improve yourself they will also.

How To Love...
Oli...

Undisclosed conversation

After sharing a video of someone shitting their pants David and I had a random conversation ... I won't disclose who said what but it went something like this...

xxxxx: how do you not a piece of crap is coming out

xxxxx: but

it she says it was the runs

you know the ones that just by laughing
causes it to you know
hershey squirt
outta there

xxxxx: lol oh yeah

xxxxx: the hershey squirts

xxxxx: aww it's funny cuz it's happen to everyone
so it's awkward

xxxxx: has it happened to you

xxxxx: well i do have an asshole
and i do eat random shit
and i am mexican
so yeah

xxxx: me to


Hmm.. You know it's real when you can talk about shit and laugh.. literally...

Over and out,
Oli <3

Day 9 - Someone You wish to meet

Dear Bill Maher

I may not technically might ever meet you but I would love to. I would so enjoy having a conversation with you with maybe a bit of weed on the side and laugh at everything that isn't right in the world.

Cheers!

-Oli

Day 8 - Your Favorite Internet Friend

Dear Ian,

You were so funny back in the days. I could always count on you to get a laugh. We grew apart and we're all grown up now. I hope you're doing well :).

-Oli

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/love/crush

Dear Haze, (lol)

Looking back to where it all started makes me laugh at how innocent we were. 7 years ago almost a decade. I'm not gonna get mushy and I'm not gonna hate on you because there really is nothing to hate about. You're one of the coolest guys I've come across from, your quirky and always have something to say even though it's nothing. If that made any sense then you know what I mean. I do wish we could of been better friends though idk why. I think we would of made like worlds greatest besties or something. (ok no that was lame). But anyways.

At some point I tried finding things that reminded me of you in past guys, which of course led me no where. I did learn though that to find someone you gotta look past the appearance and 'get them'. No I'm saying that your ugly because your not. I mean, understand what's going on in that persons head and find common ground to where it's enjoyable to talk to them and laugh with them. I thank you for that.

I thank you for teaching me how to cope with heart ache as lame as that sounds but you know what I mean. We talked about this I think after well... you went what I went through and apologized. ( I hope you remember). You didn't need to apologize. It's life and things happen for reasons, you learn by things to be ready and know what to do if you're back in square one.

Most importantly you inspired me to keep the kid inside me alive not go all bitter and sour and enjoy life and whatever it throws at you. Take it a day at a time. And look at things in different angles instead of going from point A to point D go through B C and sometimes E F and G.

I decided to wait and write this on your birthday because it seemed right in my perspective. The only reason why I remembered your birthday was because I was adjusting my Snoopy calendar and placed it on May 23 and your birthday suddenly came to mind. I get those sometimes. I'll be minding my own damn business doing something and a random memory or something we've talked about comes to me and I just smile. And I cannot pass a crayola box and insist that clear is a color.

I do think about you from time to time and hope that you're doing alright. I mean it. I do hope that you are happy and you find something that drives you and someone that deserves you. I know you will someone as sappy and as witty as you shouldn't have a hard time sooner or later someone will come along. I know it.

Like I've told you if you ever need someone to talk to, or just kill time with I'm around.

-Rose

P.S Happy Birthday!

Day 6 - Stranger

Dear Woman of Asian Decent,

Your blessings and your hopes and support of never giving up school will always be in my heart. You are one of the nicest customers I've ever helped. I thank you for always commenting on something good that I do. I rarely get good comments but thank you so much. I enjoy knowing that you find my humor funny and that I can help you in whichever way I can. I hope you're doing well too. And somehow I hope my good intentions can reach you and give you any sort of good luck and help. What ever you life path is I can only hope that all is well. Thank you so much.

Sincerely,
The Cashier who just blushes when you say my dimples are cute.