Circle of Trust

I"m at a loss of words for this post...

I'm terrified of those lovey dovey gushy getting married movies. I come to realize how dorky relationships can get with the dumb love talk and what not. It's sickening but... I'm guilty of it because I've fallen into the mushy love circle.

I decided to name this post "Circle of Trust" for 2 reasons... A circle of trust can be refered to as a ring or friends (in my perspective.) I've been selective of friends people come and go so I don't open up very much anymore just to a pinch of selected individuals. The term "Best Friends Forever" is so Cliche because inreality... how long can you stay 'best friends' with someone when there's nothing to keep the friendship going?

Now.. the ring part. I'm scared of being engaged... I was told there's a 50 percent chance that I can cheat on my fiance. We tend to have petty arguments over silly things and he's pressuring me to get married and have children...

I wanted to be a Pediatrician but... I came to the conclusion I can't STAND kids. And babies look like.. tiny Aliens.. all bald ugly needy pesky little brats...
they're kinda cute in their own little Alien way.

Blah,
The Eccedentesiast

Secrecy

I believe this blog will only be viewed by only a few or no people at all. It doesn't matter to me I guess this is where I'll vent and be inaniloquent and a nimshy. Big words for such a small brain I have wether I mispelled it or not I know what they mean and that's all that matters.

At the momment I appear to be disgruntled about a situation that has appeared suddenly on my door step (not literally though). It makes my stomach hurt just by thinking about it...

A few people who I've come to dislike from my boyfriends past are comming back, I know his past with these people and I'm just a nervous self conscience mess. I mean it's not like I can say "Bitch, you can't have friends with these ho's!" Although,... it does sound like a good idea at the momment. Who am I kidding though?! I know he hasn't forgotten about these people they've been "good friends" to him. I just think I'm being Irrational and childish.

Jealousy will cause my death and if not something in my list of "causes of death" I'm over my past as a matter of fact I think I've greeted one of my former ex's in a very appropriet and civil manner which of course suprised me. Then again I'm being less vendictive It won't lead me anywhere.

Unconditional love,
The Eccedentesiast