New Found Respect

Things between my sisters and myself haven't been as "tight" as they used to. One day we find ourselves arguing over idiotic things such as "that tone of voice she uses" "the way she acts with me" and so on and so forth. Then the minute we stop spitting poison toward one another we're stabbing each others back.

I blame this on 2 things;

1. Dad's attitude that we were born with
2. Dad's genes

Lately we've been spiteful toward each other and digging our claws into each ones ego and self esteem. Sisters right? I've been smart enough lately to just smile and not and recoil at things that THEY throw at me rather than taking it to heart and beating myself later for hurtful words. Which leads me to my new alliance with my eldest sister who has given me respect and trusts me with a juicy gossip or two.

After that nonsense was done, I was casually reading when my oldest sister and mom are having a conversation on who's the prettiest out of all 3 sisters. Of course my oldest sister has a shitty personality but she's beautiful, the other was pretty when young but now she looks like a hag, and now my eldest sister admits I've grown to be a looker. ME a LOOKER? PUHH-LEASE! Was she drunk/high that day I'll never know but she said it with such sincerity I was taken away at the fact that SHE "Ms. I-will-never-get-married-because-I-love-the-single-life-and-I-want-to-have-every-man-I-can-get- my-hands on" admitted that! To me that was like the underdog of every story getting the winning role. You know my Shrek story in a really weird way. My own world series with that comment, I would go back in time with a recorder and record that because she will NEVER admit she said that.

To me that means a renewed way I look at myself rather than being that little bad ass and pushing everyone away and out of my way, maybe I should change my ways only a little and see how far it gets me. Why don't I change because, it's like changing my entire belief system and buying into what everyone wants me to be.

Maybe I'm letting this get to my head a little, but it's not everyday a hard-assed sister says that toward the naive inexperienced sister.

Just a little less Stressed,
The Eccedentesiast