I slept most of the day today and I can't get my eyelids to touch each other long enough to go into sleep mode.
It's nearly 3am I'm texting and messaging people the few who are crazy enough to stay up just for the hell of staying up. What sucks about not being able to sleep at night is the fact that it's all quiet and you have time to let things sink in and think about the most random shit that comes into your mind. Even if it's about a rock you kicked it all just drowns your mind. It makes me feel like I'm going insane just thinking about stuff and never finding the end of issues. Eh, they'll all sort out eventually.
Fathers day is officially today, I don't officially have a present but I do in a way. It's hard to explain but he'll understand it. An issue I have with fathers day is how to approach dad, like with a hug a hand shake it all feel un-natural. It's not forced because I do mean it but I guess I'm not 'close' with my dad as I am with my mother. I could ask those who I rely on but they either don't have a dad, hate their dad, have a step dad, or don't really give a shit. I'll come up with something... some how.
On to news, I got a hair cut shorter than I usually cut it and I forget i have short hair and I expect to just pick up my hair and have a pony tail BUT no all I have is a little stub for a pony tail I feel bald. I do wish I had a gay hairstylist it be nice to have that extra helpful input. Someone to put me back in place when I pic a really bad hair style. The extra ump to the do.
I am looking forward for Saturday though it should be fun although dressing semi-formal for once is taking me out of my comfort zone mainly because of the short hair, the different style of shoes, clothing etc, I like it but I'm so used to the 'usual'.
Which leads me to this. I'm settling with the things I do and growing accustomed to the same ol' same ol'. I should do something about it, I should do something different, I should go out and look for better things BUT I just don't. This will sort out as well just not at the moment.
- I just re read the blog and I had more to say but I just seem to have forgotten what I was going to say-
A few last personal words
I've been feeling melancholic for some reason, with a really empty feeling in my stomach and a flutter in my heart. I feel happy but stationed not progressing or regressing just...there. Deep down I feel the thunder approaching with rain storming after it and when the clouds have fallen here will come the rain
Getting ready for the hurricane,
The Eccedentesiast
No comments:
Post a Comment