Unmet Expectations

Never expect things to go your way. No matter how hard you plan they always go the way you LEAST expect them.

I posted the moral of this post first just for the sake of now restating Friday - Sunday events.

- Got the haircut
- Got the clothing
- Got the nice shoes

But aside from that, everyone related to me seemed to have an Attitude on Saturday. Which lead to the conclusion amongst my sisters and myself that dad is starting to get jealous when I go out with a friend of the opposite sex. I must say I looked 'stunning' on Saturday as I left the house everyone was commenting how great I look and how beautiful yada-yada. My dad on the other hand gave me cold shoulder, then looked at me and said bye.

THAT killed my happy mood. I should not care but hey it stung. Sooner or later I'm going to pack my stuff and leaves and he knows it, but for now I'm sticking around for the sake of not being a needy person and relying on them while out of the house.

Anyway, Eddie was a great person to be with that day it was nice talking to him and hanging with him. I'm glad he's one of my long term friends we don't have much in common but we've never really gotten on to each others nerves. Which is good. Although the hole night I was contemplating on telling him one of my 'bigger' secrets that only a select few people (5 approximately) know. So on the way home I told him and I think he took it... well. He was nervous at first but then he laughed it off and made me feel better about it by being a smart ass about it and making me laugh.

Maybe that was the 1 good thing that came out of this entire weekend after I told him that it felt like our friendship got stronger. Now I think back and say "Why didn't I tell him earlier I should of known better."

So in 3 weeks I see a Lawyer, this should go well I hope maybe things will turn around for the better sooner. For mean whiles I should get the necessary things to get this resolved, I know things will go well and things will be normal once again with a few changes. Oh someone pray for my sorry ass.

Some day I will get in the car and go on a drive from El Paso to Las Cruces and back with the radio loud playing easy listening love songs and just drive off to nowhere. If this my way of romanticising with myself I don't care but I know I'm in need of some romance. ( shut up) I'll try dragging someone with me and just talk away all night then we'll stop at IHOP or somewhere and eat breakfast.

Yeah... That's it..

Living in a Dream,
The Eccedentesiast


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