Going For It

A few quick rants

After having small talk with a few people (workers from a store my dad works at) we started talking about looks and relationships, I initially said "Well at the moment I'm quite atrocious and I'm not much to look at." One of them turns around looks at me and he says, "On the contrary I find you quite attractive. It's not common to find someone on this side of town (segundo barrio area) who speaks English well and isn't a hooch with kids." After he said that I started laughing, don't ask me why but I found it funny how he expressed himself. Irrational, conceited and snobbish as if he were any better with his quick judgement on people.

After we had that conversation I didn't take notice about what he had said, mainly because I'm initially from that area and grew up there. It's like when you find a golden coin and you start to see if it's real then the paint chips. That's the analogy that I'm giving him, someone who I could of seen myself with if it wasn't for his quick judgements. I judge people yeah but I don't tell the world because I don't know the person whom I am judging well.

The parents and myself went out to eat just to get away from home and my annoying sisters and the little restaurant we go to every Friday there's this guy that sings. Now his singing is amazing I love how he sings if it were up to me I'd stay there all night and just listen to him sing. He's attractive but not my cup of tea. I'm such a little school girl in so many ways because when you look at him too much he'll make his way with his microphone to where you're at and sing to you. So pretty much half the time we were there I'd look at him when he wasn't looking and when he'd turn around I'd quickly glance down with a dumb smirk.

So maybe I am still nervous around guys. At least it isn't every guy it's just certain types of guys. If that makes any sense. I know with peers and random Joe's I'm myself and I try to get along with them but when it's someone that has a talent and he uses it so well I become a mess. Even if I hide behind my tom boy facade I'm still a girly girl on the inside.

The I.N.S Took My Novio Away,
The Eccedentesiast

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Listening to: Panic At The Disco - But It's Better if You Do
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