It's time I woman up to situations and start planning my new phase in life. It was nice being a rebellious pain in the ass teen but now it's time to face the fact that it'll be a few months until I'm considered and "Adult" in a few peoples eyes. It's motivated me into getting my act together and figure out what I want out of my life and it seems it has worked.
I was looking at college outside of El Paso a few scholarships financial aid all that good stuff and Baylor seems to be a top choice. So I'll count down the days until I have some money save up get a good car and start stocking up of things and smart up a bit. I'll cross my fingers until I get transferred and accepted but I know good things will come out of that. I'm so excited for that now regardless of all the chaos going on around me that's the only thing I'm looking forward to now. Unfortunately if I become infatuated with the idea of leaving and then not getting accepted well I'll get ready for that hard blow. Luckily I know people going to Baylor and a few who are thinking about transferring to Baylor. In addition to that a friend asked me to Car pool with him so transportation really isn't on my mind so much YET.
I also believe I've been pleasing too many people with their criticism mainly family members and I've finally decided to put my foot down. I've had enough about still being considered the baby of the family so I'm ready to grab life by the horns and steer out of the nest. I know a few posts ago I said I'd stay home and what not, but after having a conversation with my mom I think she thinks that I'm thinking about moving out sometime in the next 2 years. I wouldn't mind but I'm not sure if I'd be able to hang on like my older sister and brother did. It's not like I got pregnant and I'm moving in with the guy who accepted my kid such as what my other sister did. Anyone want a room-mate I know how to clean but I don't know how to cook well!!
The fourth of July was fun, it was nice laying back on the truck and just watching fireworks outside the city limits while listening to music and running into family members. I like my cousins they're easy going and crazy at least the ones on my dads side. My moms cousins I only have a handful that I get along with but their so unreachable now. It's crazy how they all have their own families now and are parents I still remember when we'd be running around through apartments or down the streets of Segundo Barrio.
Some time these next few weeks I'll meet up with past friends have a few drinks and catch up. I know things won't be the same and I'm pretty sure there will be some tension between me and and old best friend. Oh well I'll try to make the best out of it besides alcohol will make it not so awkward after a few drinks so who knows. I also need to make time to make up a hang out day with a few others. Which means I'll need money, and much of it.
As to everything else going on? The lawyer is poking ass so I'm limited to things I can do which sucks. I'm giving it a 2 week wait or else I'm putting things on my own hands and risking it. It's stealing me sleep but I know things will resolve sooner than I expect. I just need to cross my fingers and ask a few others to cross their fingers for me. Actually with this shit on my plate I think it's made me age a bit since it's the one of the few things that has stressed me out to the point of frustration. And it's also sending me to the poor house. Right about now I'm hoping a long lost rich uncle crosses my path and to make up for the loss of time he'd offer me bags filled with cash.
Relationship wise, I have a few options opened and out there and I need to seriously think about how each one will benefit me and the person and if it will cause a strain regarding a few decisions I'll make once the lawyer situation is settled with. The last thing I need is hurting any ones feelings or leading someone on and then leaving to another city. I need time on this and I'll figure out what's the best choice to make.
Lily Allen FTW! Amy Winehouse WTF!
That's what you get,
The Eccedentesiast
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Listening to: Blink 182 - First Date
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