I don't know that's just my thinking at the moment. I have more to say but I'm numb at the current situation I've been placed. I think things were and are going to be blown out of proportion. I can't do anything just sit and let it happen, something I'm not used to doing. Just LETTING something happen. I hate not being able to have some sort of control with destiny, but I'm no God. Fuck It.
My ambiance has been pretty romantic all day. I feel like doing something all out to make someone feel special. But to accomplish that I need some cash. There fore led me to search for some 'potential' jobs. Fuck Work.
But back to my romantic ambiance. Seriously I've been insatiably romantic today. I wanna sweep someone of their feet and make them feel incredibly high on life and on cloud nine. Just hug and caress forever and a day. Sadly that someone I'd love doing that to has been distant with me lately. You can bet your sweet ass it's bugging me. I feel a sudden wall was built and I can't do anything about it. As mentioned I hate not being able to control certain situations. I don't want it to end. I love this to much I'm enamored with this guy, I need to tell him. Sometime I haven't been doing lately. I need him because I want him. I'm deprived of him and his kisses and hugs. It's driving me insane and all I can do is wait. I'm tired of it. But I keep on waiting because he truly is worth it.
So I have love overload deal with it.
This last month money has been going to the government like crazy from us. Seriously we must of made some yuppi rich to his elbows in dollars. It's for a good reason.. a damn good and needed reason mind you. It's almost over. I can already taste it. Finally..
My beta fish is still alive, so it's a good sign. Victor hasn't broken up with me (yet) so it's a good sign. My family is getting close again, so it's a good sign. Green Day + Blink 182 Tour. Terrific Good Sign. I glanced at the time and it's 1:11Am good sign. We'll make it through.
The weather is shitty, the mustang mach 1. is gone, my nephew is no longer a baby boy. The good overpowers the not so good. Yup we'll make it through.
Don't Leave Me,
Ms. Landeros
P.S 5 bucks for whoever knows where this is from:
"You are the moonlight of my life every night,
Giving all my love to you.
My beating heart belongs to you.
I walked for miles 'till I found you.
With every breath that I am worth,
here on earth.
I'm sending all my love to you.
So if you dare to second guess,
you can rest assured,
that all my love's for you.
My beating heart belongs to you."
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That's a lot of stuff for less than a page. That concert sounds fun.
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