Today was a day unlike any other from having a meltdown in the wee hours of the morning to jumping for joy out of the unexpected news I received. It had a little bit of everything up until now.
After everything was said and done and I thought about everything that's been going on I came to a decision that I will not try to date anyone for sometime. Things are starting to look up for me and I need to focus on moving forward with my life and starting back to where I left off. I know that without having to put my attention to different issues I'll try to better and surpass my goals. I'm not saying that having a boyfriend is a distraction, but at the same time I am.
About that meltdown earlier, everything came crumbling down, from my break up to real time guys that really know where to get me where it hurts. I also made a deal that I wouldn't stick my hands in anyone's problems that didn't matter or with people that aren't around when I need them. Reason is I always look like a jackass defending people and they throw me under the bus to save their asses or just to look good. It's happened many a time with me and I'm pretty much fed up with it. I'm fed up with caring to much, things are gonna change.
Family wise things aren't great, they're at their lowest low. Things won't be the same and everyone is going to be on different pages. It's hectic but as the saying goes "What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger." I'm gonna be sticking to that and take everything that has/will happen as a lesson.
In a nutshell everything that's happened has been a lesson, if I learn from them or not that's up to me. Regardless, I'll take the outcomes and put them to use.
Left With the Taste of The End,
Ms.Landeros
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