I wish I had one and possibly a Memory boost you know to process information faster. I can't remember the correct term but who cares.
It was a fair February with other than the fact that Victor rear ended a car and totaled the front of his mustang but he's alright and that's all that matters.
Seriously, things lately have been going full blast for once I did not expect for things to start going and now I realized just how different things are going to go down. Whatever happens I'll be playing it by ear and just hold on for the ride these next few months. I've talked to Victor about it and we'll be playing it by ear since we really don't want to plan anything ahead of time and expect for things to go our way but then it doesn't and we get all put down about it. We'll live it a day at a time that's all we really can do. As for everything else it'll just fall in place and things will be normal I'm not religious but I guess I'm in one of those times where that's the only thing I really can turn to for hope that everything goes as planned, and hope that others will do me the favor and keep me in their thoughts. (it's nothing too serious but it's kinda serious)
To make things worse my family is falling apart, it's taking me by surprise because I always end up being the glue and bring everyone together with all the witty shit I do and say just to please everyone. This time around it's different. For once I feel I can't do anything about it and it makes me feel like shit. My eldest sister confided me in something that happened to her and I don't know what to do. It tears me up inside because I know how she is and how my dad is and how distant they're becoming, and how she and my other sister are at each others throats at everything. I don't know if I should spill the beans or keep it to myself and just handle it. I know I can't keep it to myself because it'll affect me since I get all emotional when I know someones having a hard time going through something and I can't physically do something about. It's like I want to take everyone's problems that I care for burn them and flush them down the toilet and get it fixed. Obviously it doesn't work that way. So tomorrow I'll decide what to do because it's pretty serious and I think if anything does happen to my sister I'll feel terrible and horrible since she's alone and doesn't depend on anyone. I'll keep it calm for now and see what decision and if I can contain myself with it.
Then there's my nephew and his sudden act of "I hate my parents and anyone who's up in my business" I know he's a teenager but this was from one day to another. I was talking to him this week end since he's starting to get familiar with detention N's and failing grades. I'm pretty sure he's doing it for a reason, I think I know what the reason is but I'm not gonna say anything that I'll have to swallow later on if I'm wrong. The best thing I could do was tell him that he'll always have me around to call up and spill things out and keep it confidential unless if it's too serious.
To top it off I'm writing a paper for one of my friends on a book and the book is kicking my ass because I'm just not interested in reading it with all this shit going on but I promised and can't keep him hanging I'll pull it off I know I can I've read a book and done a 10 page essay in 2 days I can pull it off I know I can.
Trying to be Wonder Woman,
Ms. Landeros
