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| Every blog i ever started my search for love has been the dominate topic of ever heart felt and heart broken post. Sometimes I think love to balanced and sometimes i think it is the most wonderful thing a human can feel and experience. Since my last post plenty has occurred. I now have a boyfriend and my family seems to be ok. I'm still unemployed and i'm still in square one so nothing drastic has |
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| happened. I'd bore you with summaries from things past but i'll just sum it up to the most simplest things. Things took a 360 for me and now i can do pretty much anything i sent my mind on. Ones health is in everyones mind and we're making an effort to be well. I'm an adult but inside i'm still a kid. Friendship have been my center and my anchor back to reality and sanity and i'm greatful for |
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| Every person i consider and call a friend. Here's where i put the current juicey detail so here goes. I have a new boyfriend. He's been the source of my current heartache yet I love him unconditionaly because he is everything I'm not. At the moment I experienced feelings i've never felt and feelings that remind me of bitttes pasts. At this time i wish things were a little bit different but in |
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| Reality i for once in my life did not do anything wrong and i will not back down from this and take the blame as I have always done. I'm taking time and putting some god honest thought into this and see if my heart is strong to fix this current dilemma and to test him to see if we are on the same page. Yes I can change but if I do i won't be myself. As is I feel as if I've matured I know three |
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| Three years ago i would of handled this differently. Three years ago I didn't take things seriously. Three years later I'm making an effort to make this diamond i found when all things seemed to be going down shine again. I cannot do this on my own and i understand he has to meet me half ways i'm willing to go the distance but he needs to cut me some slack and help me out. If this isn't love on my |
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| part then it must be stubbornness. I thank those who gave me advice and lend me a flash light when things got dark. I needed that. Depending on what happens this week i'll know if i should keep trying if not i'll leave this relationship knowing I did everything i could. It won't be on me. I'll keep you all posted. HOPING THIS POSTS, MS.LANDEROS |
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