Getting older is a bitter pill to swallow for me lately I've suddenly felt like I've aged yet somehow I've accept it. It's been 3 years since I was 18 and 7 since I was 15. I've accepted it not by force or because of the laws of nature but because many valuable life lessons came to me through those years. Many new experiences happened some great others not so great ranging from drugs, family, friends, love, life and death. Do I regret anything? Nah, It's what's made my hair sprout the dreaded white hairs that haunt me yet "give me character" and it's what has added the zest, spice, bitterness, sweetness and all those secret ingredients added to make a cocktail drink out of life. You just enjoy it a sip at a time!
It's the uproars, the thundering laughs, the shuddering sobs, a friendly hug and the beat of feet marching down a pavement to stand up for what you believe in. And the occasional charlatan who hustles you into trusting him. The feeling of an uncontrollable urge that takes over you and overwhelms you when you're in a failing relationship. It's the unconditional love from a sibling or parent holding your hand in what seems to be a death bed when hooked on morphine. The brief moment of holding the hand of someone who could have the potential to be an amazing partner but dares not to crossover the boundaries because the friendship is too precious to spoil. It's the guy who loves another that doesn't love him back or gives him the time of day and makes you feel second best. The feeling of your heart shaking off the dust and sealing up the wounds to who seems to be the new boyfriend that has the possibility of being something that could last. The choice of taking it a day at a time to get to know him and enjoy every precious moment until you know him inside out and when you least expect it you COULD find yourself irrevocably in love with him.
I can look back at where I came from and admiring the trek you've set out on and seeing what lies ahead. Don't spoil the moment live the day up to the last drop is what I'll say. I'm taking over the reigns and making my story as it goes and after all is said and done I'll look back with watery eyes shake my head, laugh, wave good bye and say "Where did the time go?"
Everything Happen After I Fell Hard On My Tushy,
Ms.Landeros
