Dear David,
Before I began to write this I went through my songs on my laptop and picked songs that some how remind me of me and you or just you, yourself. So far it was 135 songs, about 8.4 hours of music. I don't know where or how to start but first of all I can say I am blessed that you came into my life when you did. Let's back track a bit. When you came into my life, I had just had the messiest break up ever and an affair with someone while dating that person. My life would have been in shambles have you not come when you did. You made me reflect what I was doing. You made me realize that I am worth more than what I would say. You made me feel human. You made me remember how to open up and not be afraid to show you everything I would hide from everyone. I didn't have to hide who I was you took me as I was and loved every bit of it. To my surprise you were just like me.
Now I know that not everything has been so smooth. I know I made some bad choices and of course we've had our share of arguments. Either way, we still stuck with each other. I'm so sorry for any pain I've caused you. You know how I am and you know why I do the stuff I do or say. I'm an idiot for ever straying away. I'm a dumb ass for falling into a charlatans tricks. You know what I'm talking about. I almost lost you in that process. All this time I was in search for love and attention and something real when there I was staring it the entire time. You.
I still can't forget the first day we met it was as if our eye locked and our future just flashed in front of our eyes. I guess that's why I wanted to step outside and take a breathe. You left me breathless lol. I don't know I almost wanted to faint. Then there's of course the “street fest” we never went to. Ugh what a mess that day was but at the end it had a great ending. I wouldn't stop smiling the entire way home. As we went along we made so many memories and we faced so many obstacles that we surpassed. I'm pretty sure you've figured out that I'm not a very easy person to deal with but like any strange object I have a certain way to be approach. You've learned the hard way a few times.
I'm sorry that I get mad so fast. I don't mean to get mad I just sometimes forget that you're human and can't read my mind or understand me when I talk a mile a minute or mumble words. I guess I get so used to you understanding me that I assume that you should know what I mean. I'm really sorry.
I also wanna thank you for not throwing me out of the car even though I deserve it sometimes. I wanna thank you for being the shoulder I can bury my head in and cry on. I wanna thank you for so many things I'll take so long to mention. Thank you for so many wonderful things you've made me feel and all the times you've made me laugh when I needed to laugh. Thank you for hearing me out whenever I'm being a “pissy-pants”.
You're more than just my boyfriend, Love. You're my soul-mate, my best friend, my comrade, my partner in crime, my drug, my passion, my reason for wanting a better life and most importantly my angel. You're my fallen angel who left heaven and came to save me and guide me from this hell called earth. You're so much more that words cannot describe you fill me with an immense feeling that's bigger than you or me and the universe I don't even know how I contain it.
I can't wait to see what the future has for us. But together or apart you are the most AMAZING person that has ever walked into my life. You've left a mark in my soul that will never be erased. If we are meant to be together and keep writing in each others chapters which I do hope we do I'm excited for what lies ahead for both of us. I wish we could fast forward time and start living our lives but I the waiting and the battles is what makes it worth while.
For now, lets enjoy our lives a day at of time. Have fun like we always do and do stuff like we always do. Everyday together with you is a new adventure. Every hour with you is heaven on earth, every moment with you is priceless and unforgettable
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Thank you so much for all the laughs, I love you Stinky pants/Enojon/Mocoso.
Love Forever and Always,
Pee-pee Pants.
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